"The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt."
Every so often I reach a level of intimacy deep enough with a girl that she will tell me about he sexual blossoming and first experiences. Not the usual ‘first fuck’ stories, but the kind that happen way before that.
One girl told me her first orgasm was at age 6, while lying prone on her father’s home office’s hardwood floor and grinding herself against it. This girl grew up to be able to orgasm without any direct stimulation.
Another told me at age 4 she coaxed her younger sister go down on her in the bathtub, and then returned the favor. But her first orgasm was around age 7 when her family was visiting a relative’s house, and the dog went down on her. She later prompted this behaviour from her own dog, and the other dogs around the neighborhood by slathering herself up with butter and locking the door.
Yet another told me of an experience in elementary 3rd grade. A group of girls in her class all gathered at one of their houses. The leader girl brought out a vibrating shoulder massager from her grandpa’s room, and they all sat around taking turns getting off with, while the others watched impatiently, for the rest of the afternoon.
I hear these things and I’m left with a baffled, raging, jealous hardon.
Are these stories sexy because they’re told by girls? Or because they were exceptionally young at the time? Is that even consdiered exceptionally young among girls? Why is youth sexy? Is it?
To be clear, I’m no pedo.
I think what’s sexy here is knowing that these girls were sexually aware all along — it didn’t just smack them in the face late in Jr. High — and I’m left wondering about how that changed their minds from that point onward, and how it helped shape the sexual person they’ve grown into today.
I try to imagine what it would be like entering, and going through, puberty with perfect awareness of your sexual functioning.
An inquiry to those (mainly girls, but guys are welcome too) intrepid enough to indulge it:
At what age and how did you first get off? And if it was before puberty, how did it shape your sexual identity as an adult?
"Another belief of mine: that everyone else my age is an adult, whereas I am merely in disguise."